What if we mess up? How far can we fall before the safety net catches us?
I've always been one to look down, despite what we're taught, so I know the net's there. Still, I can't help feeling anxious and self-conscious. Sometimes I wonder how I've made it THIS far, spending most of my time replaying moments in my head, wondering if I should've said or done something differently. Looking ahead just leads to more anxiety.
It's funny how the world works, a recent series of events, prompted by a neck injury, forced me out of this comfort zone. Now, instead of my comfortable shoe-gazing, no eye-contact lifestyle, I'm forced to keep my head up, shoulders back and eyes where everyone can see them. It's either that, or live with excruciating neck pain...a real toss up, I know, but also a complete nightmare for someone as socially inept as I am.
The only relief I find is when I get to hide behind my camera. So that's what I'll do for now.
There's something to be said about a child with a vivid imagination. For those of you with kids, you know just how quickly they grow up and how playing "Civil War" in the rain will soon be a thing of the past. So for now, I'm enjoying every second of his childhood innocence. Why does it have to go so fast? Next year at this time he will laugh at the thought of dressing up as a soldier and setting up camp in the rain. He'll be embarrassed of this photo and beg me to delete it from my collection. But I'll never do that, because this is who he is and these are the fun moments that every child needs to remember.